An update

i was going to delete my blog as i never use it anyway but when i read what i wrote before i don't think i should. I am so much happier now, college has really helped because it's strange i never saw myself as unhappy but seriously i didn't think i was unhappy, lonely maybe but content. But at college i have a great group of friends and we text and talk all the time i even have a social life again :). One of them Dani has really helped, we both suffered with bullies and we are really similar so i never have to put on a front with her cos the chances are she's been through the same thing or has the opinion. I even learned that I'm not completely undesirable and have had a few guys asking me out, i actually said yes to one of them but he turned out to be a bit of a let down (he was 40 minutes late for our date and we had no chemistry). One of my bus friends said that his mate had seen me outside college and asked who i was because i am a very attractive girl, which just goes to show that i can be pretty even on a wet windy day. So what i want to say is that i am so much happier now and i will try again with this blog to make sure i never lose faith in myself again. Goodbye my nonexistent readers :)