letting it all go

OK I've got used to the fact that no one is reading my blog but I'm just gonna post this cos i keep going over and over it in my head and i can't get over it. in 2 weeks time all my gcse's will be over and then I'll never see any of my friends again. at first i didn't think it would be that bad cos we would keep in touch. but now i know that we won't happen no one has called or emailed me to see how I'm doing (but then that never happened before anyway). sometimes i feel that I'm pushed up a glass window looking at everyone else they all seem so close and i feel left out. They've all got one best friend who they tell everything, I've never had that. seriously. sometimes it would be nice to know i just belong somewhere anywhere would be nice cos frankly I'm tired of staying indoors when everyone else is out. I'm tired of being the last one to know anything. I'm fed up of being sixteen years old and never been kissed. like what is it? Am i too ugly? Too boring? Too annoying? or am i just one of those people who is just a good friend. in my year book everyone said how i had helped them and been kind too them some even mentioned my great sense of humour yet why do i always fell like an outsider? Anyway I'm still really angry with my so called prom date, who still hasn't said a word to me which is strange cos before the prom we spoke everyday for hours about everything. what has suddenly changed that means he isn't talking to me. I'm not sure i even like him anymore cos every time i think about him i have an urge to break his nose. :) but don't worry I'm not going to turn into a psychopath I'm just really pissed off. i feel like my prom night was ruined because of him. and I've just realised why i post on here even though no one reads my blog... i post cos i don't need to worry what people think or if i might offend anyone I'm just saying what i really think and i don't have to put on a face to get me through the day cos although i feel that I'm surrounded by people with no one to talk to. i can still say what i feel on this blog. now i have an idea what to call my blog. thanks for listening my nonexistent readers.