more rambling

i haven't posted for a while cos i don't have any readers apart from myself so by posting I'm just talking to myself which is a bit sad. Anyway I've finished my GCSEs had a taster day at college and met my new tutor although there is still one problem that i can't get out my head. in a few weeks i will get my results and then i will never see some of my friends again as they are all going to a different college. a few weeks ago i told my so called prom date exactly what i thought. i just said everything like how i was pissed off at him for ignoring me and that how we used to talk everyday but now don't speak at all. i had a rant for at least ten minutes after which i got a message typed back to me on msn (we only ever really talk on msn): ok lolz w/e i mean i had just talked for ten minutes and said exactly what was on my mind and all i got was a whatever. it was like having the rug pulled out from under my feet. i knew he could be an idiot but i always thought he respected me enough to listen to what i had to say. he just brushed me off like i was over reacting . I'm not mad at him for ignoring me I'm over that but i would have thought he respected me and treat me like a person. i told one of my friends this who was also one of his mates, one of the 'lads', and he told me that i obviously wasn't as clever as i looked for trusting him since he wasn't trustworthy. Although that's the problem i did trust him and just because I'm clever doesn't mean i don't make mistakes and really that's all people see me as a brain, a human encyclopedia, in my year book nearly everyone has thanked me for helping them and being a kind person. although sometimes i wish they would treat them like that person rather than someone who knows all the answers.